Sunday, June 20, 2010

a night feeling...............of..................

Dear Diary,
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Sometimes, being single is nothing special. I know my motto is 'Single, Hot, Happy'. But tonight well, I feel empty. The thing with me is that I can't sit in a room with no one else but myself. Well, since everyone was out for a date, I kinda felt jealous. This seriously can lead me to depression okay! I hate being alone in a room. My thought just when crazy! So, I end up feeling lonely, eating twisties, reading CPG on Major Depression Disorder and starring at this hilariously stuck-up internet. I eat twisties on SATURDAY night for God sake! Luckily I'm not watching Oprah!
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So, I got hungry. Waiting for my roomate for dinner was a big mistake! I can end up having gastric attacks! So, I when to the nearest Mamak store. Soooooo many man everywhere [well of course, its World Club Ghana-vs-Australia], what do you expect? I miss my brothers. They would be home watching World club right now while munching my homemade chocolate chip cookies that I left a week ago.
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I hate to be alone because I start thinking about my past history. God, I miss him. But that's it. Not that I expected him to come back. Seriously?? He won't do that and I know it. Trying hard to not-think-about-past-boyfriend, I end up texting everyone for a date. That's a very desperate thing to do! Yup, I'm ashamed of myself. But, texting doesn't mean I meant it to happen. Not right now. Not when I'm still strugling with my own insecurity. I had a feeling that somehow I should stop talking nonsense, right Diary? Okay, I'm sorry. I shouldn't bring up this matter back.
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Anyway, after dinner I bought ice cream to cool me down. Haha~ It does work a little. Sometimes. I think. Owh Diary, make me stop waiting please. Hopefully my Damon Salvatore will be here soon. Hurry up and find me! I won't be looking for you. [is this a warning??] That's all for now Diary. I better continue my study [which stuck half way since 10 hours ago]. Chow!
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Owh and yes, :)

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