31st Dec

It's my little brothers' birthday..si Razi of course.

Happy birthday budak manje cewek gedik mengada~!!!!

:)

May you grow up to be the hottest and a brave man someday..

But to be hot, you dear boy, HAVE to be a good Muslim.

..hehe..

*Akak bagi lollipop lagi eyh this year?*

I'll be here to take care of you..

Always and forever sweetheart.

:)

a BEGINNING

.. Syukur Alhamdullilah ..

I've pass my Professional 2 exam.

*happy tears*

So speechless that I couldn't talk.

The minute Prof said "You're half doctors", I burst to tears.

Thank you God.

Listening to the happy voice of Ibu and Ayah are enough to make me feel so blessed.

Some of you don't know why is it such a big deal to pass this exam.

It's our final written exam.

No more papers after this.

Just......REAL patients!

Trust me, being a medical student, it's triple double tough.

It's either you live and survive or you die.

Or your patients life.

Choose one.

However, this is not the end. This is just the beginning.

Semester 10 will be harder than I thought because we'll be living in the hospitals just like the houseman.

Difference between us is that, they get paid.

So, I'm off for 2 weeks holiday.

Will start a new life at my new house.

.. Salam ..

28th Dec

It's Ayahs' birthday..

Happy birthday daddy..

:)

See, you can still play basketball with us kan?

WE L.O.V.E YOU!

teet..teet..

*open message*

"Thank you my dear naughty daughter!!"

..hehe..

My Day Today

This is so hard.

Hari berganti hari, soalan semakin susah.

*teary eyes*

Will I pass?

Tuhan, kuatkan semangatku..

Please don't make me stop fighting.

Walau menggigil mana pun tangan ni.

By the end of my 3rd paper today, I was just so exhausted.

I did the best I can.

But I still wonder, will that be enough?

Am I good enough to be a good doctor?

.................

............

.....

..

when I feel like 'falling down' and 'scared', someone remind me,

"Kalau takut, jangan sebut tentang perjuangan.."

So, I never stop trying.

Even how rough the road would be.

Please lend me your strength for another 2 days of exam.

Thank you..

Last Preparation

"Salam dear Ayah and Ibu,

Tomorrow will be a big day for me!

[and a week onwards]

I'm still preparing myself for this war with notes and zikrullah.

But, I know to complete it, I need both of your blessing and prayers..

Especially a mothers' prayer :)

Za mintak ampun banyak2 since anak perempuan ayah ni degil sket!

..hehe..

Halalkan makan minum sume walopun asek kene sound makan sikit je.

Fine ayah, Za tak makan sarapan lagi ni.

[See, i know whats in your mind daddy!]

and ive ate the medications Ibu..

[Cume, semalam terlupa je :P]

..hehe..

So, wish me luck!

Love both of you double triple much!!

Hugs & kisses!!

Muahhhxxx!!!"

*Message Send*

Tuhan Kuatkan Hatiku

*tengah pening belajar pasal stroke! owh ye, tuh baju masa form 3 haha muat lagi?*

sayu sikit malam ni..

ditiup angin yg sejuk membeku, angan-angan lagi..

ni adalah simtom 'cuak-exam' ye..

perasaan bercampur-aduk

terima kasih kepada yang sanggup menyokong diri ini

walau jauh mana pun..

tetap tak penah putus bagi kata-kata semangat

*yeahhh aja aja fighting!*

so, di kesempatan ini, za nak mintak ampun, maaf, atas segala salah silap sepanjang hidup ni.

ada terkasar bahasa, tersilap kata, terguris hati..

kadang-kadang za tak sengaja, tapi tak perasan pulak kan?

*sob..sob..banyak betul la dosa aku ni*

ZERO-ZERO okey?

Boleh kan?? diskaun skekkk~

plz plz plz..mintak sangat-sangat doa pihak anda untuk diri kecil ini..

supaya dapat melepasi sem 9 dengan cemerlang dalam pro-2 ni..

I wanted so much to face each and everyone of you out there, minta maaf and peluk cium [perempuan je ye]

..hehe..

*teary eyes*

[mungkin sebab kepenatan, emosi berteraburan sikit]

anyway, plz vote me to pass this exam via your prayers okay?

takyah, taip "ON PASS" to ###### pun, just say it.

..hehe..

*muka cuak!!! sgt2!!! tak tipu ni*

Thank you again and again and again!!!!

hugs and kisses!

muahhhhhxxx!!

Happy Birthday Jiha!

Today is my little sisters' birthday..

yang ke-8 kan??

*ramai sangat adik sampai lupa umur*

my Dad called us, "The-Temahs"

..hahaha..

budget cool la daddy!

:P

Daddy bagi apa kat Jiha? Jangan bagi best2 sangat, dia kecik lagi oke!

*padahal jealous!*

again........"The 3 Temahs"

hahaha

owh missing Juwa soooooo double triple much!

Your gigi rongak really means so much to me Juwa!

hahaha

*seriously cute bila tengok dia posing depan camera ngan gigi camtu*

Anyway, hope happiness be yours forever Jiha!

I'll pray the best for you!

Hugs & kisses!

muahhhhhhhxxxxxx

Pertempuran Hangat!

apekah malangnya nasibku ini...selalu sangat bertembung dengan cicak! arghhhh!!

Mula-mula maggi cicak....

Lepas tu plastik cicak....

Lepas tu kentang cicak....

Lepas tu telukung cicak....

sekarang, kau nak berenang pulak dalam mesin basuh atas baju ku si cicak??

[dahlah berenang, pandang I pulak tuh bila I bukak penutup mesin tu, siap mendongak ko yek?]

*menjerit2 tengah malam bukak mesin basuh*

arghhhhhh emosi emosi!!

*meremang bulu rome*

apesal cicakman beranak dalam rumah ni macam banyak sangat eyh?

ngorat banyak sangat cicak-awekz ye?

aduhhhhhh...memang tak bole tahan tengok makhluk Tuhan yang satu ni.

geliiiiiii~~~~

arhhhh tolongla pupus~~~~

(-__-")

Exam Fever 10000x!!

tup tup..

tiba-tiba, "MOCK exam petang ni pukul 2.30pm"

yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!!!

*Buya??!!!!!*

Padahal pukul 7.30am dah ada kat kolej nak start diskusi.

hah, menggelabah gua!

hoh, tolongla jangan bagi kejutan luar dugaan macam ni lagi bole tak?

kalau kejutan dapat cincin berlian, takpe :P ..haha..

seriously, tak bersedia mental physical lagi nak tengok sebarang kertas exam.

tak kira la ori ke tak ori ke, I tak nak tengok lagi sebelum this Friday boleh tak?

(-__-")

panic attack!

tengah2 group discussion tadi pun kaki non-stop bergerak, cuak punya pasal!

lepas solat Zohor, cepat2 la berkejaran ke exam hall yang boleh buat orang beku *HYPOTHERMIA tuh*

[ada tak mana-mana staff kolej yang baca blog I ni? Bagi hint naikkan temperature kolej ni.]

Dahla sesuka hati sesedap rasa semanis kata kolej suruh I bayar lagi, padahal dah berzaman tok kaduk dah siap bayar! *panas tol jiwa ni*

Masa tuh laaaaa semua nak datang, sakit perut la, pening kepala la, loya la, nak terkencing la, terberak la, aaaahhhhhhh serabutla body!

So, buat jela exam tu, sehodoh mana pun jawapannya kan..

sekali keluar Typhoid Fever la pulak kan? Perlu ke keluar mende yang I tak sempat nak baca lagi?

*Nasibla mock exam jer, kalau tak dah lama bakar kertas tu*

Tapi, Prof cakap, apa yang keluar dalam mock takkan keluar untuk exam jumaat nanti.

CUNNNNN~~ exclude typhoid dari soalan spot kitorang!

hahahaha, kurang sikit beban membaca.. hahahaha [Thanks Prof!]

*Ratu Kebaya berkabung lepas mock exam*

hoh PANIC PANIC PANIC~!!

Tak nak masuk exam boleh tak?

I pura-pura pengsan jer?

:P

One In A Million~!

*with 17 million hits!*

My BF Singing :P

Counting the days........owh wait........FIVE days LEFT to the big day!

okay, I'm panic!

There's sooooooo many things I still don't study.

Still have a lot of reading to do!

*serabutnya jiwa*

We've been preparing like from terbitnya matahari-terbenamnya matahari everyday!

Be back home late, speaking of late, I've been sleeping early [like earlier than I used to].

:P

Is it enough? Is it???

The more I read, the more I don't know.

God, just please stop my heart from this tantrum of palpitations.

To calm myself down, I either eat a lot or listen to my boyfriend [see, I'm halfway crazy!] singing...........

[Seriously, I love this song!]

*Asma Allah by Sami Yusuf *

I once berangan konon2 masa kahwin nanti, nak masuk dewan sambil lagu ni berkumandang, sambil pegang tangan my hubby [in my white dress of course] walking while staring at each other [pandangan we-were-meant-for-each-other-kan-bang?] , smiling and everyone will stare at us [budget macam angels laaaaa] huhu..

Daydreaming lagi!

..hehe..

Just feels so scared now.

Will I made it through this Pro 2-exam?

Sajak Aminah Qutb Buat Bakal Suami

Sekiranya,

kita cinta kepada manusia,

tak semestinya manusia cinta kepada kita,

Tetapi sekiranya,

kita cinta kepada Allah,

nescaya cinta Allah tiada penghujungnya.

Sekiranya,

kita cinta kepada manusia,

kita akan cemburu pada orang yang

mencintai orang yang kita cintai,

Tetapi sekiranya,

kita cinta pada Allah,

kita akan turut mencintai orang yang

melabuhkan cintanya kepada Allah juga.

Ya Allah,

andainya dia adalah jodohku

yang ditetapkan oleh-Mu kepadaku,

Maka,

campakkanlah ke dalam hatinya,

cinta kepadaku adalah kerana-Mu.

Namun,

andainya dia bukanlah jodoh yang

ditetapkan oleh-Mu kepadaku,

berikanlah aku kekuatan agar pasrah

dalam mengharungi ujian,

yang Kau berikan kepadaku..

Taken from;

Thank you my brothers, Mamat & Ayun for a very nice book as my birthday present.

It's a very interesting book!

I'll be telling you [yes u my readers] stories in my following entries...

So, check out my next entry okay?

It'll sure make you smile a mile..

:)

I promise!

A Year YOUNGER!

Fine, I'm still in denial. Knowing I'm 23rd already makes me a little nervous.

How fast time passes right? I wonder what happen tomorrow.

But for now, I'm happy with what I'm doing [studying like crazy!], who I'm with [i.e. people around me - family etc.], and what I've achieved so far...

I mean, being myself out there wasn't easy. Some does accept me as a whole, however some doesn't. But, what the heck la kan? I don't really care. As long as I'm doing perfectly well till now, others just doesn't matter at all.

So, this year, my Dad remember my birthday! Thank God.. :) thank u Daddy..

With Mom, Dad, Mamat, Ayun & Razi beside me, we ate this delicious cake together!

yum yummm~~

Owh and yes, My friends did a little birthday suprised party at Botanical Garden at Putrajaya.

I did not expect that [truly from my heart girls].. :) ..

Came there, truly confused, when suddenly, HELIUM BALLOONS!!!!!!!!

owh my Dior/Chanel/Damon (huh?), I was jumping like no one around~!

Owh, I've always wanted helium balloons since I was a kid!

It's gorgeous, cute and colorful! Yeayyyy sooo happy!

One of them bakes this macaroni with mashed potato on top.

Heavenly delicious! *serius sedap okay Haz! Thanks again sweety..*

Initially, that was so-called my birthday cake.

But, I don't really care cause I L.O.V.E anything with chocolate flavor.

duh~must check my blood sugar level ASAP!

When suddenly, they sang me birthday song and someone brought a beautiful fruity cake from behind! Abe! haha~ I was like......"They surely spends a lot for me"

*tetibe terharu~ sob..sob..*

Then I jadi kedekut, taknak bagi orang lain makan. Boleh tak?

hahaha~

Nawal muka merajuk dengan Abe [what? people have crisis everywhere laaa] hehe :P

Ops, picture Nawal tak sempat posing!

Never mind, scroll downwards please..................

Yup yup, pose!

*Okay tak Nawal gambar ni?*

hehe :P

*from left; Nawal, Alin, Kak Lin, Haz, Cik Nab, Paiz, Abe, Ki*

Friends that did a lot for me

loving u all!

Thank you a lot korang!! Hugs and kisses!!

Owh, party doesn't stops there..

I've been carelessly cleaning up our foods when ... "SPLAAAAAAKKK"

There goes your hands kan rerakan? Gatal.

Cream all over my face..yup yup, I don't think I need face mask for a month or more after this..

One word, "HELP"

People were staring like "apekah budak2 ni buat yek?".

haih, takpun, "cantik bedak tepek2 budak pempuan tu"

ggggggggggrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr~

Main kejar2~ hahaha :P

Important thing is, I TAK PANCIT okay :P

Looking for...........................................mangsa!

Then, tired la kan? TAK PANCIT okey..penat je. huhu

Haz help me with cleaning all those creams..

Focusing on cleaning..

*lama gile?*

haha

when a party CRASHER came, "SPLAAAAAAAKKKKKKKKKKKKK"

Another big one!

"Attack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

Kejam.

All I could think of.......is CLOROX.

*tudung putih okeyyyyyy*

My beloved housemates...

From left, Alin, me, Haz, Nawal.

You girls rock my world okay!

Thank you soooo much for the party...it was WORTH IT!

*Cause I dah lama tak guna Clorox kat rumah tu*

hahaha

:P

That night, I sleep with my birthday balloons.

Such a happy day!

God bless you all..

"Akak, Razi pilih ni untuk Akak", my sweet little brother told me. Excitedly.

:)

Cik Nab made this for me...like seriously, she literally knit that cute little love-love for me..

How amazing her hand made gift!

You are sooooo talented Darling! :)

My aunt did this for me in facebook..

Thank you soooo much...

Lastly, I would like to thank everyone of you that wishes me this year!

Unbelievable - banyak gile. Tak terdaya nak balas..

Thank you so much for your Doa tooo!

Wish me luck in my Professional exam 2 this coming 24th Dec okay?

Hugs & kisses XOXO~!!!! :)

Just The Way You Are

Oh her eyes, her eyes
Make the stars look like they're not shining
Her hair, her hair
Falls perfectly without her trying

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Yeah I know, I know
When I compliment her
She wont believe me
And its so, its so
Sad to think she don't see what I see

But every time she asks me do I look okay
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her nails, her nails
I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh
She hates but I think its so sexy

She's so beautiful
And I tell her every day

Oh you know, you know, you know
Id never ask you to change
If perfect is what you're searching for
Then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking
If you look okay
You know I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

The way you are
The way you are
Girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are
And when you smile,
The whole world stops and stares for awhile
Cause girl you're amazing
Just the way you are

Trip to Malacca

Memories~!!!!!!!

*at K5 Station*

from left; pqah, fema, ina, me!

*Dunia dah terbalik. Laki lebih suka gosippp~*

Ina [the perfect nurse!] & me [the cute doctor InsyaAllah]

*nak tunjuk kete baru pqah yg wana pink sbenarnye!*

The interior design were a bit less-boring.

"Hi, my name is Momo!"

"Look how cute, big and chubby am I~~~~", said Momo.

I was forced by Cik Yatie to wear this inner. Weird on me aite?

Breakfast with friends.

*walopon mee tu kosong je, makan jugakla..dah nama pun lapa.*

With Cik-Yatie-Sells-Shawl early in the morning.

I love those light effects!

Friendship forever~!!!!!!!

We basically met each other in year 2000.

And now it's the end of 2010.

:)

Guess how do we look when we were younger???

*Comot!*

*Sbenarnya tak pilih warna sama pun bola tuh. Accidental finding jer~! :P*

Money~money~money!

Love you sweeties~!!!!!! Muahxxx!!!!!!